I’ve hit a brick wall this entire year so far.
I’m not going to conceal the truth that being an artist is a continuous up and down battle emotionally and physically for many. As an artist who produces one-of-a-kind pieces day in and day out, I feel an intense inner pressure to create and produce on demand. Producing nearly 500 original designs a year, solo, is a lot of work.
The problem; I feel overrun and overused. This is fully my fault. Why? Because I’ve failed to communicate my passion to my community. I am not just the product I create, but that’s all I’m letting you see. I’ve lost sense of why I started making jewelry in the first place.
I derive an enormous amount of satisfaction from the creative process. My creative process doesn’t start with a design on paper. It starts from what feels like home to me; the things around me, the things I’ve collected, and the things I interact with on a daily basis. The creative process takes time.
“There is huge value in having relatively unstructured, unpressured time to create and develop new ideas.”
Just as the creative process creates a feeling of happiness, the greatest unhappiness can occur if it is interfered with or not allowed to happen.
This year, I’ve slowed my gears in an attempt to grasp focus. To analyze what it is I’m trying to do. Although it took me 6 months for put my finger on it, I feel a sense of relief that I haven’t felt in months.
I announce this with the utmost respect to the community that has opened their arms to me over the past four years; I will no longer be entertaining requests for custom work.
I have to be able to cycle through the creative process naturally. I have to slow down and do a better job at building a bond with my community. I have to show you where my inspirations come from. I have to put you in my environment and let you see the things that I see. And most importantly, I need to show you my process.